Night # 55

create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands

Those in red are countries that I have visited so far. Only 6% of the world. Oh dear... So much to do, so little time... so little money.

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On the treadmill.... The mental torture...

Last Monday I did my 5 km run on the treadmill and of course I was thinking of repeating it this morning. Just 20 min on the treadmill, I was only going slightly less than 2.4 km and I already felt like dying....

Me: Oh my goodness, not even 2.4 km yet and I am already so tired. Feel like stopping...
Me: C'mon you can do it... keep on going...
Me: Can't... my legs are aching, feel a pain coming... (whine)
Me: Focus on the time. 5 more min and then up the speed
Me: Up the speed???? Must be joking... I am already dying at this speed (pant pant)... I think I feel a pain in my stomach... Think I am going to stop.
Me: No no. You want to do this tomorrow?? Start all over again? Turn up the music... focus on the music.
Me: Tomorrow?? nooo... ok ok.. another 5 min. (turned up the volume of my mp3 player)
Me: Keep on going... 10 more min
Me: Ok ok, let's try to do at least 4 km today...

I finally got to finish my 5 km. I didn't feel anymore when I was in my last 1 km. Legs were kind of on a autopilot mode... They just went on and on and on...

That's the reason why I hate running. I have to go through this mental struggle everytime. To me it is often a mind over flesh kind of battle... but will it come a time when the mind goes overboard and pushes too far?