Night # 73
I have been having this strange feeling these days... I am beginning to wonder if it is boredom that is slowly creeping into my system. I found myself restless and having some difficulty in sustaining interest in some things like reading. I am also beginning to think more and more of home. I have never been so long away from home.
Perhaps I have been at this mode for too long. I need a change in momentum and rhythm. I remembered when I first arrived in Kuwait, I was so sure that I would not want to teach. I don't want to be working in a school. Yet a week ago, I was doing up my CV to apply for a teaching position. Yesterday, I was checking out the various international schools over here. Maybe it is time to start again. I ought to be quite well rested by now.
I still can't understand myself. I think if someone were to ask "what is it that you seek in life"... I would be utterly lost. I have absolutely no idea... Am I in denial? Am I lost? Have I stubbornly refused to see? Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps... :)
Perhaps I have been at this mode for too long. I need a change in momentum and rhythm. I remembered when I first arrived in Kuwait, I was so sure that I would not want to teach. I don't want to be working in a school. Yet a week ago, I was doing up my CV to apply for a teaching position. Yesterday, I was checking out the various international schools over here. Maybe it is time to start again. I ought to be quite well rested by now.
I still can't understand myself. I think if someone were to ask "what is it that you seek in life"... I would be utterly lost. I have absolutely no idea... Am I in denial? Am I lost? Have I stubbornly refused to see? Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps... :)
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